Showing posts from 2016

when I couldn't be the man he wanted me to be.

Staying home was always a bitter experience. In my dad's presence, it was a time to look both sides, stay focused and alert because any loosening and relaxation would always win me a slap and bitter scorching. And in my mum's presence it was a time to relax and feel free from anything and everything in life..mum never held me accountable for anything.
I feel faulted every single minute of my life and I always want to be free but it never seems to happen. Dad always wanted me to be a better simply or rather furiously imitate the dress code of those other guys he saw across the streets, guys who wore blazers and neatly ironed shirts and on the contrary, I was ever clad in T-shirts and wash and wear garments.
The boys across the streets seemed well groomed and ready for life in his perception and I seemed un bothered and not caring about tomorrow.
I think his positive values about me were hanging on lightly, he seemed to have some un withering belief that I would someho…

grieve not, love.

I deprive myself of any opportunity to grieve,
i have the highest regard for myself.
i think I'm way better than you.
you know why?
because i loved you,
and you never loved me back,
you hated on me.
i cant to grieve your love, 
because it never existed.

A million dollars

what is truth?
does anyone there know what truth really means ?
not just in their perspective?
when you look closely at the scene of order and chaos, do you see what i see?
may be the truth doesn't even exist, may be what we think is all we got, whoa, that would be a terrible loss for negative thinkers, what if there's a universal acknowledged truth about certain things, religion, business, success, life, love, hate, luck...??????/
am growing accustomed to the notion that your environment greatly shapes your personality, "you are the average of the five people you spend most of your time with." some inspirational speaker said that.
now i pause to you this riddle again. from a movie definitely, it used be thought of as truth that all movies make us lazy, retarded and idle, i have got the utmost of my encouragement from movies, especially the tech movies because am a tech guy,  and possibly you can find solace, inspiration and drift your mindset by watching and careful…

the beach riddle

sometimes i sit and think about life and its all a paradox, a puzzle i cant decrypt right now, so i resort to finding out how well i can go about this whole mystery that life is, theres no shortcut about this, it seems we just have to go about this step by step, accept the evil that comes with newly attained independence or the helplessness that comes with lack of it thereof,  and , well i like this bit of quote from a tech film called Mr. robot, its close to what i was pondering on, a scenario you gotta read twice, here we go,

 "My father picked me up from school one day and we played hockey and went to the beach. It was too cold to go in the water so we sat on a blanket and ate pizza. When I got home my sneakers were full of sand and I dumped it on my bedroom floor. I didn't know the difference, I was six. My mother screamed at me for the mess but he wasn't mad. He said that billions of years ago the world 's shifting and ocean moving brought that sand to that spo…

The cars that sip more liquor than you do

Biofuels have been around as long as cars have. At the start of the 20th century, Henry Ford planned to fuel his Model Ts with ethanol, and early diesel engines were shown to run on peanut oil.
But discoveries of huge petroleum deposits kept gasoline and diesel cheap for decades, and biofuels were largely forgotten. However, with the recent rise in oil prices, along with growing concern about global warming caused by carbon dioxide emissions, biofuels have been regaining popularity but not so much in Uganda.

A case study in Brazil which has the world's largest fleet of flex fuel cars where close to 80% of the vehicles there run mostly on flex fuels.
 Kakira Sugar is preparing to commission its $37 million ethanol facility in July that will produce 20 million liters annually from molasses. With the country’s E20 policy pending implementation, the company expects to see a rise in the local fuel market or potential into the chemical market for products such as hand sanitizers.…

Are you living ?

Yes , you got the question right , am i living, are you living ? we can each take turns answering this, many of us are afraid of reality , is that why we don't take that risk ? is that why we cling to that stressful, enslaving job?

if there exists something like reality check, then we need need to really undergo a reality check, take an audit into our lives and gauge where we stand.
so there's this friend of mine, and being a modern era full of social networking platforms, i send her an inspirational link to some article that was in fact relevant to her field of study, she brashes it off as trash, i didn't want to believe he was trying to let loose her outgrown arrogance towards me, i quickly diverted my attention to other things so i could avoid any more disgusting and reckless comments from her.

Yuh, often you ignore a wake up call intended to inspire you and later give you the extra guts that you need when the day goes awry, i mean when the schedules, deadlines, and res…

i cant catch up with UG.

Its been long and apparently nothing has been going on so i had to keep my mouth shut incase i came up with a disgusting topic.
being ugandan , someone would quickly attack me. lets call the attacker mathew.
this is not some kiddish dialogue. u need the remote on for PG.

Mathew: dude, how do u dare say there's nara going on in Uganda?

Me: wo wo , hold up , really is there anything boiling ?

Mathew: A lot, idiot, From the election petition by Amama Mbabazi to kasese shootings to 'Bad Black' being released and quickly changing her alias to 'Bad Brown' after a nasty skin breach in prison.......list goes on.

Mathew: Do u even own a radio, nerd?

Me: Nah, radio? what crap is that? i got data(MBs), bitch!

Mathew: heehehe, you never share any constructive news on those tabloids, all yo folks do is feed you on a bunch of crappy videos . or wait, are u a group admin?

Me: Nah , so tell me why the hell should i have to bother myself with your endless gossip and your political foul-p…

the temporary fix trap

often in life, we live by the famous Pepsi slogan "live for now", well we often think of the future but do nothing about it. when you think of planning far ahead, an evil ideal makes you feel like that is far fetched and may never manifest in your life.

quick decisions and fixes to mega problems only relieve us of the tension at the moment. but make us incur double costs in the long run . implementing a sketchy plan with in thirty minutes may save you time instantly but don't forget you will be back to the drawing table for a longer session ahead because the quick fix didn't stand the test of time.

we see this often when we go shopping, a few people have a knack for original and durable products . often the price tag seems outrageous but its always worth the embedded quality and build of the product. most times people opt  for the items that seem cheaper . this often leads to purchasing the similar item over again because the latter never lasts at all.

that company o…